Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Betraying God is more painful

Taking shower without my clothe and i see myself naked. I asked myself, who am i? Why i keep doing sins against my Father!!! Most of the time i think i am special, but i know i am just a simple and useless person. Some time i asking myself, why should i live on earth? What is the reason that i need to continue to live?
   I committed a sin against God, i asked for forgiveness while i still haven't forgiven my friends. Oh, dear, life is hard, life is about something you need to challenge. Forgiveness is the most important thing in this world, if you still keep it in your mind, you will not live happily.
  Love is not about sex, love is about making love. Love is about caring and responding. Love is about making each other feel warm. Puzzle need other pieces to connect to each other to form a picture. Chains need to connect to each other to pull something, love needs relationship, real relationship, faithful relationship. I'm in love with a girl, and i ask myself, who am i? Can i support her when she with me? What can i do, when we have children? Where will we live? How many children do we need?
  Sorry the tittle is not really match with the body of this topic. I just want to share my feeling. I am so stress and so pain about my love relationship. I always ask why the girl that i love always ask me to go? Why the girl that i am not really want to stay with really need me?
  I was thinking i am a special one, a girl from oversea visited me in second time. But i forgot not only me she talked to. I always thing i am special, but lastly i found that i am not really. i wonder why my heart is so weak? It is my first time to see triangle love, tasted it and i felt it, painful, painful ... She asked me, ''do you feel jealous? '' She added, she felt very pain when i did it to her.
   I found that everything is my faults, only me made it and only me stop it. Dear God i am sorry for what i have done to harm other beloved people, i am just a sinner. I pray that one day you will be saved, i love you and i am praying for you. I am sorry that i hurt you. Sorry to all the people that i made them sad.

** sorry my grammar and spelling may have problems.

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