Wednesday, September 9, 2015

GO BACK TO YOUR SHEEP AND FEED THEM

What are things which in my mind that making me not able to sleep?
    First: God gave you a work which to take care of his people, the orphans, the sicks, the poor... But why you leave them separately site to site? What? Are you ready to face with the Lord, who gave you this authority to look after to them? If you need leisure, for sure can, but see what is the differences between leisure and lazy. What have you done to your sheep? They are lost, some wounded and smell, some foxes eaten them, oh one fell into a well and you said to me, they can help themselves. Man !!! That is not a word, it is your responsibility. You are full, fun, laughing ... look !!! They are cold, they don't know where to come home, do you think they are able to get out from the well by themselves? I believe in the Lord's plan, so I am still, but my mind is stuck with this issue. Go back to your sheep and feed them. For times is still have for your repentance. How long more do you want to let your sheep lose?
  If I have a in-cure disease will you still want to be with me till the end of my life? She said yes, but I left her. Today I am sleeping with disease, eating with the disease, playing with the disease, laughing with the disease... Do you have fear with it? I said "NO", but some point, I felt scared. Not because of money, but I chose to stay with the disease victims. But I believe it is because of the CALLING. YOU ARE NOT A HERO. Maybe you are questioning me, are Jesus? When you love someone, don't be afraid to sacrifice for that. If my sacrificing really can help,I don't mind to do it. But I don't believe that, I really need to have that disease as a sacrificing, because I know it doesn't help this way. I know what I need to sacrifice for, my heart, my times, my knowledge, my skills, my life...
 I am lonely, I need friends, a friend, but most of all, I feel like Adam, he needed a woman. I am 28 this year and I really need someone who can help me to achieve my dreams, who will let her labs for my head, give her arms around my backs... Can she go to watch soccer with me? hehe, just my side, I hope I can complete her needs also. I had tons of hidden relationships which I am hating now. I need a girlfriend/wife for a real human, not a machine. I want to be her man, not her phone or computer's screen. I can read her some of her favorite books. Oh, I want to give her all of the romantic things that I have known from every corners of teachings.
  I am born here which is a country of troubles or Kingdom of Wondering. Politically, I don't like how the government is doing at all. Corruptions itch my heart, injustices speed my heartbeats, security haunting me. I wished to see my country to reformed, like other countries in the region. Real fight against corruptions, poverty, injustices, human rights, nature resources ....I can give all my worries to God who can solve all things, and He is loving to handle it for me.
   But lastly, the thing which in my head tonight that making me not sleeping is Coca-cola. It hurt my stomach and pin my brain.